I have these days when I'm happy and all, those are usually when I'm out with friends and stuff. But then there are days when its soooo freakin hard and soooo lonely. My boyfriend's far away right now and I don't get to talk or see him as often anymore and it gets really frustrating and really difficult becuase I miss him so much. He's away a lot so I'm kind of used to it, but becuase its summer its just that much harder becuase you have nothing to occupy your time with.

Hopefully my dA account will be running smoothly and I could upload my stuff again ^^ We're getting closet to fixing my comp

There are very very bitter guys out there that tend to think that women are the source of all their relationship problems. That kind of makes me annoyed, since well...I'm a girl. BUt aside from that it's very narrow minded and very 'grade two' so to speak. Just pointing a finger in someone elses direction and yelling 'they did it!' It isn't a sign of maturity, but more like a sign of a certain level of denial, where someone refuses to look at themselves and try to understand a problem. However, women do the same thing too, blame men for stupid things. I think it's rediculous! First off, it is useless to fight about preferences, likes and dislikes etc. since it is so person, and secondly it just shows an inability to critisize yourself. (Note: blaming and hating yourself isn't criticism). And there are the sort of women that say, 'oh he should be able to see my soul' and all that crap like that, which frankly is useless when meeting the person for the first time. Meh, that was just my thought of the day, unscramble it if you want. Haha!

I just wrote the last chapter of my story...which will hopefully turn into a good novel sized story. Haha...
Yeh, so now I have the beginning of the first chapter and the finished last chapter. I am not sure how long it will be so it doesn't really have a number to it. Haha...

I actually think this is great progress becuase now i know what I am heading towards at least by a little bit. I mean its nice to have it in your head or you notes or something, but to write it down makes it feel more concrete. There's no doubt I will most likely change a few things about the last chapter as I write the rest of this thing but for now I have something going for me. ^^

So I finally decide to start writing again, and yes most are thinking...poetry is writing... And it is, but I have started writing what I hope would one day reach the size of a novella, or a novel, since I already have a full written novella (i hate it ... haha) Anyways, so most likely the tiny amount of people that will read this, will go like..."great job on starting to write your story! But whats with the title?" Well...let me explain... I have this thing it called WITS...worst inspiration time syndrome! I am inspired to write, but unfortunately it is the end of the year and a lot of work is being thrown at me left and right, plus exams are coming up. Do you see how that limits my writing time to...well...pretty much nothing. Yes, WITS is very annoying. Hahaha.

Hmm...


However, I doubt I will be posting the story here, in fear of theft and just because it might be too long, and I don't want to post chapter by chapter. However, I might post an excerpt, just so I can get feedback on how it reads. But it isn't something I can do in a matter of weeks, might take months...a year (with the pace I'm going at now...lool.) I'll most likely get into it a lot deeper during the summer...

Cheers